You Are God of Your Reality - God Is God Of All Reality

With tears my wife spoke to me saying, "You do not understand me."

I replied, "I need to understand you completely to Love you completely. All of creation may speak to me as you have spake. I do not understand everything about everything, but that will not stop me from loving everything as well. I can only do my best and my best is all of what I am. What I am is what I do understand. I will strive to understand more of what is not me, so it will then be part of me and I part of it. In this way, I will give it the love it needs which is not the love I have for it or for you now. I do not understand everything as I did not create anything that which is created, but I, like you, am here to be one with it in Love. The more I understand, the more I become one with that which I understand. The more I become one with all that is, the more I Love for there is more of me to Love. There is ONE that has created and knows all of you and Loves you more than any can. It is HE that you should seek help from for he knows how to help you more than anyone. Only His Love for you is complete."

She replied, "I know something exists, but I don't know Him."

"He knows that you wish to know Him. Strengthen your desire to understand or know more of Him and He will feel that Love. I do not know the answer. I simply know He knows. Because He has spoken to me in secret while I was talking to you when we first met, I understand He is there through more than blind faith. In this way, it is easier for me to understand with the understanding that He has given me. With this understanding, I understand that it is difficult for one to understand through blind faith, but I assure you, He is helping you. It is you who cannot see how. Be paitent and desire Him through searching for the beauty in everything. That beauty is meaningful and will become you. For what ever reason He has not revealed Himself to you yet, I promise it is with good reason, for His understanding of everything cannot be understood by man least you be Him. Realize that you cannot understand everything in one moment least that understanding be given to you by Him. Only He knows what he is doing."

I quiver in attempts to express this as I may be speaking something which may be misleading to someone about Him. To speak with assurance of Him is ignorance unless you Know everything of Him. Although He spoke to me literaly, I do not understand all that is to understand. Fear comes from not understanding. I fear because I do not understand. This fear born from my ignorance. Ignorance is not understanding something that is in existence which needs to be understood. To see reality you must see everything. Everything is right in front of you.

My mother gave birth to me.

Lack of understanding gives birth to fear.

Fear gives birth to defense of self.

My awareness of His presence gives me faith.

My faith gives me peace.

Love of self (selfishness) is blindness of reality (darkness) which gives birth to ignorance.

Arrogance comes from too much confidence of understanding one has inside of self (darkness).

You are born in darnkess.

Flesh gives birth to self. - self is part of, but a separate element of your physical existence

Self gives birth to darkness.

Darkness gives birth to ignorance.

Ignorance gives birth to fear.

Fear gives birth to self preservation.

Self preservation gives birth to separation.

Separation gives birth difference.

Difference gives birth to hate. -Hate comes from experiencing differences from self which is a refusal to accept that which is not you or your understanding (i.e. denial of reality, or that which you are not one with)

Hate gives birth to anger.

Anger gives birth to struggle.

Stuggle gives birth to destruction -to self, others, or other things in reality

Destruction gives birth to pain.

Pain give birth to self suffering.

Self suffering gives birth to Hell.

Hell gives birth to evil.

Evil is self love. -hell is where evil dwells

Love of self denies bonds to reality different from self.

Selfishness is born of flesh.

Flesh is in reality.

Reality is everything outside of you which is also inside of you.

You are in reality and you are in your own reality. I think of it as the place outside of you is heaven, the place inside of you is hell that has been contained so that it doesn't overcome and destroy heaven. Thus you are your own God of your reality and it is within the midst of heaven that you are standing in but can't see unless you are released from it.

Ever notice how a person is happy with that which one can relate so easily with, the joy and happiness one gets from things outside of themselves, but when receeded back into self the differences then become struggle for self, and indifference is Hell?

Living on limited knowledge and misunderstandings with expecting reality to live under your understanding is an attempt to be God of your reality in this reality. See reality and make it your reality. That is the reality I speak of. His reality is both Heaven and Earth, not just all you, for yourself and nothing else.

You mean to say, this whole universe is about you, for you and nothing but to serve you and what you understand? ARE YOU SERIOUS? -Hence the meaning, "You must be out of your damn mind!" I just thought I'd throw that in there. Just something to think about is all.

Things are born from things.

Self desire is attempts to be God of all that is by way of demanding reality be all that you think it should be (subservient to you). This is how you deny reality for what it is and trying to change it to what you think it should be is to expect.

Refusal to understand God's reality is creating a greater difference.

Likes attract - It's a law of reality.

Suffering is self suffering. That is why I call it suffering in ones' own existence. That suffering is of the flesh.

Difference is what makes up the different things in reality. How does something come into being if it doesn't become itself. Itself is different because it is what makes up something new or that is not you. That which is made is made from what is and is not something that is new from nothing. It is all made from something, it's just different and constantly changing to create a new existence. Hence my statement before, "You are what you understand. What you understand is a fraction of reality, and that is going to change. Therefore, you will never understand." Life is neither easy nor hard. It just is. The beauty of life is the fact that things are different. The relation to those things that are different is to enjoy life and the difference in it. It is difference we are created from and attracted to, yet at the same time it is difference we struggle with.

A snake can bite you and you not be angry with it. It to is here and has a home and was simply a situation. Understanding that there is nothing that is trying to do something to you. Everything is based on circumstances of what that understanding is at that moment in reality. That reality is true to all of reality and not indifferent to human life as it is to any other life. Viruses have no prejudice. They just do what they can to survive where they can survive, and like you, they have a favorite place or person to consume or live in. There is nothing personal about it. Understanding is the only thing that will allow you to change it.

Existence gives birth to change.

Change gives birth to differences.

Differences give birth to what is.

What is is reality.

Reality gives birth to meaning.

Meaning gives birth to love.

Love gives birth to desire.

Desire gives birth to curiousity.

Curiosity gives birth to searching.

Searching gives birth to realizations.

Realization gives birth to understanding.

Understanding gives birth to self. -Understanding establishes self; creates connections to reality which changes self by becoming one with what you understand. Understanding comes from realization of meaning. Thus, things have meaning to self establishes which establishes love.

Self gives birth to spirit or soul.

Spirit gives birth to rebirth. -You must be born again, not of the flesh but of the spirit.

Spirit birth gives birth to inner peace.

Inner peace gives birth to oneness. -A oneness with everything on a level of reality that is here in reality that cannot be seen with the eyes, but of the spirit. God created heaven and earth. Love comes from everything in reality. Reality is heaven and earth.

Oneness gives access to heaven. -Your oneness with all of reality, that which gave you love or you gave love.

Happiness comes from sharing or exchanging with that which you love.

Everything in reality was created equal, but different.

Difference is what was created to give uniqueness and individuality of characteristic and life to all that is.

All that is came from One (oneness).

One gave birth to all.

Who gave birth to One, I do not know. If I knew then I could tell you. If I told everyone, then everyone would be one with me. If everyone was one with me, then everyone would be me. If everyone was me, then everything in life is the same. If everything in life is the same, then nothing is different anymore. If there are no differences then there is no changes to understand. If there are no changes to understand, then there is nothing but one thing. If there is only one thing, then there is nothing else to know or be. If there is nothing to know or be since everything is the same and one, then there is no reality.

I do not know is ignorance.

Ignorance gives birth to fear. I fear I have not written the truth because I realize I do not understand everything. It is up to you to seek what you are to understand. Understanding is all around you for reality is meaning, and meaning is what you need to understand. Words do not have much meaning. Meaning has meaning and needs no words to be seen. Realizing meaning is understanding. Understanding what you realize changes you. I can only write what I understand and it is not complete meaning. I am not trying to misguide anyone. I'm simply expressing self. Everyone is expressing themselves. What is the meaning? If we knew, then there would be nothing else to understand. There is beauty in everything. The question is, can you see it.

If a person says, "She dresses like a tramp." There is nothing important in what the person said about someone else. It was a person saying they see someone that dresses different than them. That is all. The meaning is all you need to see to understand the person talking. The person talking is only speaking about self. Self is the only person aanyone has dominion over. Understand this border will help you understand God's creation a little more. That will help you realize that you are in someone else's reality. A reality that is not your own.

Everything is changing, so I will always have something to understand. It's interesting and beautiful and I love it all. Feed yourself from the fruits of life. No two things can occupy the same place at the same time. Ignorance is in place of understanding. There is a beauty in that too for everything is beautiful. The beauty is, you can change it. To change it you must understand. It will then change again because now you understand something, so everything is the same, yet everything is different. Find a balance in life and remember. All things exist.

Both Love and Ignornace create things in this reality equally. You have a power. That power is to change. The change you must make is to your own understanding. Thus, the only thing you have dominion over is yourself. Change yourself, how? From understanding reality. Everything that you do understand came from it. There is more to understanding and to conclude you understand is to make your self assurance that you are at God's level is your own refusal to accept reality and change with it. To refuse to change with the changes is to struggle. Understanding something is changing self. Afterall, is it not self that understands what one just realized? The more one realizes the reality that is universal to all existence the more one sees of reality that is God made.

-For they have knowledge of Good and Evil. Evil may be awareness of self or self love. Identity of individuality which seperates one from all of the oneness of reality. This is still love. It's just a love directed towards self. Love for self is selfishness and wishes to do all things for self. This self love does things to God's reality. Realizing self within God's reality is how you realize God's reality and creation and becoming one with that reality. That reality is both your reality in heaven and in earth. Earth reality is only one part of reality. Self is dwelling in earth. Unawareness of heaven does not mean heaven is not present. It simply means one is not aware of heaven. Thus one is not in heaven. Heaven is non-existent because you do not know of it. It is non-existent in your mind only.

Establish more awareness of reality, which establishes awareness of self in reality through creating oneness with that which is reality. That reality is heaven and earth. Establish connection with heaven through your spirit. Spirit is established from Love. Love is established from reality. It's almost like saying, the spirit is in heaven, and the body is on earth. Both can live now. What is interesting to me is the fact that someone said there is a hell where the soul goes. I do not understand that. I think the soul is the life in our body which is in hell. Hell is born of suffering which is self suffering.

This thing isn't like me, therefore it is different. Anger that it's different or not pleasing to self is born from self love. Anger is destructive and demanding that everything be like self. This leads to frustration and struggle. Struggle is hell. Hell is self suffering or suffering in one's own existence. You are in Hell and need to fight your way out for you are born knowing nothing, unless God blessed you with something. Something is the spirit. The spirit is born from Love. The spirit has access to heaven and it has to learn to live with the soul which is in hell. They live together, but one can overcome the other. Only one thing can exist in a place. It is not relivent to time. Time is irrelivent to infinity. Infinity is perfect and forever which is established through a miriad of changes. Changes which are creation and beautiful. Establish a place for your spirit and you enter into heaven. It's not a myth or fantasy. For it to be spoken of, it must exist. That's why I proved to you that monsters exist. A monster is an imagination of ones mind. This imagination is an exaggeration of parts and peices of things in reality. The assembly of those parts and peices that are exaggerated is art. The parts and peices are all created from something in reality. Something in reality has fangs, blood, flies, jumps, and on and on. The exaggeration of the reality is an imagination of one persons mind. That person is real. Thus his imagination came from reality and is born in his mind as real. Thus the monster is real in his mind and he is part of reality. Thus the monster he imagined is real. It is not universal to all of reality, but it is still something to enjoy as creative from that persons mind. To love this persons creation is to love something in one mans mind. His reality that he created in art is enjoyed by all those that see it. All those that see it change from having seen something in reality. Since you saw it, it is now your reality. If you understand it, then it is nothing to fear. If your mind creates exaggerations too, then you have something to fear because you do not understand the limits of ones creation over reality. One persons reality is now your reality. You saw it, it was and always is your reality. The universal reality has laws. These are laws of reality. Understanding these laws is to help understand reality. It is not conclusive to knowing everything, for only One knows everything. That is the law of this reality. It's beautiful. I wish you could see it.

Intolerance To Difference

There is an infinity out there.

That infinity exists as an indefinite. Indefinite as in undefined, yet functioning on a simplicity. The simplicity I call laws of reality. Laws which are simple when you understand them, defined as difficult when you do not understand. If you take anything you understand, it's easy. Show you something you do not understand, it's hard. It's neither hard nor easy. It just is, and it's different because it is changing, infinitely changing. The infinite existence is a balance of changes. The changes exist as a rule because it seems that the infinty is in place because of something and yet all of what exists is balanced on that something. This realization of something is all that is being explained.

Infinity of difference means not a single thing in existence is exactly as anything else to 100% perfectly and exactly alike. That is impossible. These difference have an infinite range of changes. Some of these differences are notibly visible and dificult to accept. Some differences are so subtle it appears to one as NO DIFFERENCE, or easy to understand.

Well, this is amazing when you consider the rule of opposites attract. That is so false that it's hindering the further advancement of understanding the truth of reality that exists. A simple wording or explanation of something that doesn't hold true to all of existence is not an opposite of anything. It is simply a misunderstanding. Monsters exist? Sure they do if you realize that everything that was used to assemble the monster came from an exaggeration of something that was seen in reality and artfully assembled as an ideal or creation of the creator of that monster. You see everything is already created. The created is changing. It's changing because it has to in order to be here. It has to change to maintain existence. In this existence, the changes range indefinitely. The result of the changes can be fast or slow, but to reality there is no sense of time or ending or beginning. That is what infinity is. Thus it can't be solved. Yet it can, and only one can solve it. You can't solve for him and so you say it can't be solved, so you say, it's impossible, so you say God doesn't exist. That's because you don't understand. Some may have realized more than what you understand, and have been blessed with the priviledge to understand. This sharing of understanding is simply presenting an understanding that is different than what you understand. Some people cannot tolerate that difference. This takes you into a self suffering or suffering your own existence. You should get the meaning of what is to be understood. That is what meaning is. Meaning is exactly what it means. Saying or doing something in your meaning to satisfy you 100% perfectly to make you happy is not what this universe is designed for. How could that even be possible when you do not understand infinity or the whole of creation, or existence, which is changing to be different all the time? Who do you think you are, God? You are, over your own existence, but are you even God of that? Interesting to think about and good luck with your tolerance to the infinite pool of differences that exist and continuously changing making more differences.

In the beginning and end, all things are balanced on perfection. Some call it singularity. I see all things as connected through that existence. That existence is what everything depends and rests upon. You may not realize it, but He exists. Nothing could speak of the One if he didn't exists, because it must be in existence for one to speak of it, because no one created existence. We were created into it from it and are bound to it and by it. It is beautiful. Changes and differences are the most beautiful thing in creation since that is how we exist, by being different. If everything was exactly the same, then it would be One thing. If everything was one thing, we would not be existing as a difference of the one, and we would not realize ourself. That is like a fish lives in water and is one with that water. It is of the water and the water is the air to the fish. The fish doesn't feel a difference of being one with water until it is removed from water. Removal of self from the one is death. This is a lack of tolerance to difference. We are made from difference, yet we cannot stand that all things are different. The greater the difference, the greater the suffering of existence. The greater the adapation and tolerance to difference, the greater the range of expansion into all realms of reality and thus, the realization of beauty of existence itself. Inner and self peace through a connection to all that is.

Like a fish surviving out of wather, wouldn't it be wonderful if you could travel through space at light speed and visit DIFFERENT places in the UNIVERSE!  There is no evil in heaven.  Any evil that exists has been contained within self.  I, personally, see no evil, hear no evil, and speak only of my evil.

There is self with an intolerance to difference through too much awareness of self, and little or no awareness of the infinity and heaven you are standing in.

If there is an end to all of this reality, I cannot see it, so I cannot speak of it.  I could be wrong.

-Embrace change when you see it.  It will change you. Thus, it will change reality.

J. Stallings - 0500 AM 1/30/2009

Everyone Is Alive . . .

. . . And living out their own life. Applying the rule of "everyone is doing what they understand" in connection with "the boundary of what a person has control over," brings to the realization that everyone is doing everything for self. This "living out self in reality" is all that people are doing, which means nothing and no one is doing anything wrong towards you. They are simply acting out their own existence. This existence is not bad, it is based on their understanding. Understanding "self in this world" is how to balance the existence of that self in this world. What often happens is what a persons mind is doing may not be with the understanding of the world. This means the persons mind must be developed to a higher level of understanding. The higher the understanding the greater the differences and changes in self. The changes in self come from the acquisition of understanding. Understanding is attained from reality that is outside that of the mind. The mind doesn't understanding everything and to understand that you understand everything is to live out the life of a juvenile in a world of infinite knowledge. Attaining this level of understanding creates a balance through adjustment to the world of changes and the infinite number of realities that exist in your own individual reality.

The question is how does one attain understanding through the adaptation of the world that exists outside of self? You must see it. Seeing it, live in it by understanding it. It is like a heaven that exists and you are in the middle of it. You do not understand how one can be in heaven when you are in a hell. That is a self indulgence. You are not everything, thus you feel yourself as your own universe, which is a seperation from the existence around you, which results in self suffering. I call it Self Suffering, or one suffering in their own existence.

This leads to a greater level of realization. Remember you are your own realization which is you and what you understand, which is your own reality and everything in reality is based on that reality. But there is a kingdom of God. You just don't realize it even though you could be standing right inside of it. You just can't see it because of the control you have over you own dominion, which is the border of your control in this reality, which is everything is you. You are everything and until you get out of your box and live in heaven, which is this reality, you will suffer in your own existence.

Reality is Realization

Atheist- a person who denies or disbelieves the existence of a supreme being or beings. This is a true statement. There are people that do not believe in God or a supreme being. This is true to those that are Atheist. Atheist's are honest about what they understand. The fact that one person is aware of the presence of a supreme being doesn't mean that everyone can or does. People who are not aware of a supreme being created the idea that there is no God. This is merely a person admitting they are unaware of God and cannot say that He exists. This is perfectly normal. They are not doing anything wrong, simply stating what they understand. They do not believe in something they are not aware of, and that is perfectly normal. I like that honesty and I do not wish to force my understanding upon an Atheist. If I tried to do that, I would create a sitaution for myself. That situation would be me trying to create in someone elses reality a reality that I feel and am aware of. That is my own reality and explaning it to someone is not proof enough.

If one becomes open enough to listen to the possibilty and find meaning in what I say, then that is his decision to open his mind about it. To argue the point, regardless of your assurance of a supreme being or the lack thereof is simply extending your reality into reality in attempts of procreation. Reality is always the truth. It is up to an individual to want to change their reality or for a force of reality to change that reality. In the end, it all ends up being one thing; a reality to the person that just realized the existence of what is real.

"Reality is your realization!"

J. Stallings

Beauty of Life

The beauty of life is the changes of life. The changes of life bring on new life and new changes. As mentioned earlier, Change is the most beautiful thing in existence. There is creation itself and from creation comes all things. I cannot be here without the presence of my parents. My parents cannot be here without theirs and so on. The presence of humans cannot be without the presence of this earth, sun, solar system, universe and ultimately God Himself. We live off the earth and it lives with us.

I took my imagination to two things in existence, people and water. The people can reproduce and consume water. The water is doing the same. The water will overcome the people in a finite space and people will become extinct. The water will be consumed by the people and dry up. To create a continued existence, balance must happen and balance requires changes and evolving which produce new changes and new environments which create new conditions and circumstances. This cycle is revolutionary and evolutionary. The key point of focus I'm bringing in this topic is this; Change is beautiful as it produces the beautiful kaleidoscope of existence. This constant changing creates differences. These differences are what make us and everything in existence different. The beauty of life is the variety in life. The variety in life is beautiful. If you can see that then you see how everything is there to be loved, learned from and understood as it is what it is. It is not here for your pleasures of willing it to be what you want it to be, but it is here as the beauty and the result of an intricate balance of life itself. Release attempts to control reality by wanting and judging life as it should be in relation to your understanding, but further yourself and become one with it by understanding reality and realize the limitations of your control in this reality are set at the boundaries of your own existence.

Change is difference and we, as humans, are attracted to change yet many dislike changes which are not satisfying to self or self understanding. Resisting the changes that are trying to happen naturally in reality, which resulted from the changes imposed on it to make the changes it is making, becomes self struggle. Now reality is doing what it is on its own and is not imposing anything against anyone. One's relationship with those changes can then come into play and this is where one needs to recognize self in the world of changes and differences which are occuring. The changes that occur in your immediate reality are actually stemming from the results of the infinite changes that started since the beginning of existence, but who can make those connections? Realizing reality and its connection to self allows one to see self the big picture of reality and self intertwined in the midst of changes and differences that are occuring. This helps you to identify what you are and what you are in reality.

Many function in a way of trying to get from reality what they want without making self change. This comes in the form of what I call self love. This loving self is so powerful that it pushes one to demand from reality immediate changes to give right NOW the changes that it wants to satisfy self. This love for self is, nonetheless love. People view this love as selfishness, hatred, evil, bad and any other colorful nickname you can think of to describe the one meaning of self love.


This resistance to balance, which is change, which is normal and necessary, which is beautiful for being is a futile resistance to ones own existence. After all, it is the existence of things that came before us that make up us and what we are. Going outside the box releases the human focus of all things revolve around self. If you don't understand and you dislike that, then see what it is that you do not understand rather than create a dislike for what is there for you to understand. You can change only one thing in this reality and it has an affect on reality. To expect reality to be what you want it to be without a change from self is demanding to be in control of Gods reality which is what you are in.

Now looking at self in reality. Think of this. You are you. You are angry at something because you don't like it. I wish to make one point. There are 9.6 billion realities on earth right now in human form and growing. What will be the changes to come. If you were the person beside you and they didn't like you, then you can see their point of what they don't like. Then you can be someone else that doesn't like the smell of kimchi (a korean food made from fermented cabbage and chili). What about that reality? You will always be angry. You are simply one thing, angry at your own existence for it's not what you want it to be. That anger is directed at reality which is a power struggle to force reality to be what you want it to be. Acting against reality is living in Hell. Hell is what you create and you are not God, nor do you have control over anything outside of yourself. Release yourself from self interest and see the beauty of life and enjoy the cycle of changes by seeing what you can do in the circle of life. What or who did you just make unhappy to bring about your happiness to please yourself? You didn't do anything wrong to anyone or anything, just as no one is doing anything wrong to you. Balance is the key.

Realizing self helps with decision making in things that are more related to those things in reality that can be changed. That limitation is set to yourself. You cannot control reality, but you can control your reality. This change in self then impacts and changes your surrounding which is reality. The surrounding changes then change because like anything else in reality, it must react to you as you are in it's reality. This reality outside of yourself will change and you will have changed it not by changing or judging it, but by changing yourself through understanding gained FROM the reality around you which then became a part of you. You are what you understand. What you understand is not something you created, but something you gained an understanding from that which was already created. This connection to the existence outside of yourself is now part of you. You are part of it. It will change when you change and you will change when you open thy mind to it. Then you are changed. Change in self comes FROM reality that is. Your understanding of it, outside of your assumptions of your understanding, is what leads to the changes in self, which lead to the changes outside of self because the rules of reality apply to all reality. Since everything is real it to must change. What changes are occuring is based on you as well as you are based on it. This is the connection of self AND reality. Both are one. You are reality, but you are only a part of reality. All must change as that is the way existence is built in an balance to remain in existence. I think.......... Thus, a rule of reality is it must change. Change is the balance. Live with it, and live in happiness. Changes you make come from reality. Changes it makes come from you. Your reality is not YOUR OWN REALITY but the reality of existence itself and it keeps on changing. What is the ugliness or evil in that? There isn't any. There is only self love, or love of all things in reality. No one is trying to hurt you. It is what it is. It is a Beautiful Heaven, waiting for you to enter it through your existence which is inside you. You are your gate to your heaven.