Decisions

Do we have the ability to decide? I've wondered this question after coming into consciousness. I am making the decision to call it consciousness because I've recently watched a few videos on youtube about real reality and read a few paragraphs of enlightenment here and there. I normally call it into reality and self awareness. In the big scheme of things, it doesn't matter what you call it as it is the meaning that is important. What did I just say? I just made something of lesser importance than another thing. This form of discrimination is unusable in reality because reality is all things which makes all things important. To discriminate about one importance over another, was a poor choice of words because I am aware that all things are important. It is difficult to describe reality in words. I cannot describe it is the truth. This is my mind spiraling to remain in reality. I was brought to write this blog entry for a question which came to mind "How can I make a decision with something that doesn't come to mind?" In other words, must it be in my mind, which is where I'm trying to stay out of since it's the minds knowledge that is a block on reality? Who do you ask this question to? I will think it out and update the blog if I find my answer to my question, or if someone provides me the clarity. I wonder, do we have any control? If all I can use is what comes to mind, how do I get something into my mind if I cannot see it. I know it is right in front of me, but I cannot see it. Can I change my view or mind so I can change what is around me in my reality? My mind remains blank and I'm guessing some will say meditate on it.